December 3, 2007

• A little from column A, A little from column B

  So the question today, boys and girls, is this: what is my blogging personality?

  Am I the same person online that I am in “real life”. I certainly think so, at least in the sense that i dont pull any punches. But then again, there are things I can say/type online to people I have never met that I would probably not bust out on first meeting them in person. Of course, the caveat to that is you people come here, so I can only assume that you share similar thought patterns and interests if you bother to make repeat vists.

  But I digress. Every so often, i go back and reread some of my old posts to see how i have changed in terms of attitudes, writing styles, subscribers, etc. And I can safely say that from when I began blogging in 2003, i have definetly matured as a writer (though i realize applying the term “mature” to me must be done with tongue in cheek. as opposed to anywhere else. ha.)

  And yet, I still have some of the same habits I always did. I have a short attention span, i am an attention whore (though in my defense, to a degree so is anyone who maintains a blog), but i have a knack for finding out of the ordinary links and sites.

  So now that I have gone off on this whole tangent, I submit the question to you: what do you people grok of me based soley on my writing. And for those who know me in RL does that mesh up?

  …

  With the deep thinking out of the way, lets move on to some medium thinking

  How drug reps make friends and influence people: A chart
  and the rest of the paper

  seriously, i doubt anyone is REALLY under the impression that we are not influenced by drug reps, but isnt it sad that you cant even rely on someone being friendly without trying to pull one over on you? how in the world does any physican manage to trust people at all after even a year of practice. Hell I am only in my first clinical year and I have already learned the most basic lesson of medicine is that patients lie.

  …..

  And some lighter thinking

  In a brief callback to the personality question I am a total gadget geek and slowly working my way toward status of “medblogger” I think.

  www.medgagdet.com oh man do i love this site. Newest medical advances so I can actually hold intelligent conversations with residents and attendings and occasionalyl even impress them despite not always knowing about the studies

  Also, speaking of studies, how do i get to do research like this? Haha censored space hamster porn

  ………….

  And finally, a rant.

  I seriously need to start charging for my friendship. Something like from the first time we meet, you get a two week free trial period of my friendship, after which there is a monthly fee to maintain it. If you upgrade to premium membership, you can also receive such perks as introduction to my friends with free lifetime memberships, or me “being there” for you. Why do I think this system will work? well clearly my companionship is a valuable commodity, seeing as how so effing many of the women I date decide they want it.

  To elaborate. Went out on a couple dates with girl i met in the neighborhood. I am not even wasting time giving them internet pseudonyms anymore. Things seemed to be going alright, and the smack dab at the end of the 4th date, as we were walking back from lunch, she went into the whole “I am not looking for this right now” spiel. Looking for what? did you lose something? She gave a whole bunch of other excuses which to be honest I didnt really hear because I have developed a tendency to tune out one i hear one of those “it’s not you its me” speeches starting. Instead, I hear Journey and other classic rock bands.

  To clarify: it is OKAY to not be attracted to someone, and not want to date them. It is ODD to not tell them this until several dates in. It is BIZARRE to expect to maintain a friendship with someone under these circumstances

  So at the end of the whole deal, she finally reached the point where I tuned back in to catch the, “but I would really like to stay friends with you” bit. And here is where I finally just had enough.

  Me: No, I don’t think so.
  Her: huh?
  Me: I dont think we need to remain friends. I already have enough. I was interested in dating you, and you dont seem to think its going anywhere, so we can part ways here
  Her: Oh. well, …erm…, okay.
  Me: It’s been fun though, have a good one.

  About the only thing I did not do was walk off whistling.

  At this point, I am guessing most of my male readers are applauding, and the female ones are thinking I am a heartless bastard or something equally insulting. Well you know what? I dont particularly care. I am getting pretty tired of hearing the same platitudes over and over again. As a third year, I have limited free time, and frankly, i would rather spend it with people I have invested the time and energy in becoming close with over the years through shared experience and common interest, not developing an entirely new friendship just because some girl doesnt want to feel awkward about not being interested in me. I was not rude, I was not spiteful, I was simply being honest. And I encourage everyone else out there to be the same. Stop wasting each other’s time, we all have better things to do.

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